8.7.17

Look at me being on top of updating! I’m on a rollllllll 🙌🏻

Another weekend has flown bye, and it was a pretty fun one. Friday night Mando’s sisters came over, the boys got in some play time with their cousin Nova, which left the house nice and messy lol but they had a good time though so 🤷🏼‍♀️ Saturday morning we also spent some time with them, we met up at Home Depot so Nathan and Nova could do the kids workshop, they made a Penske truck.


Sunday I attempted to have a yard sale, but we got a super late start and ended up only getting 1 customer and made $7. But hey, it’s $7 more than we had before lol goodwill is gonna get a good drop off soon! 

I made a little progress with birthday decorations, I painted clothes pins for the monthly pictures and finished cutting out the last of the Mickey heads. I went to target twice (2 different stores) and neither of them had the favors bags or Mickey straws I’m looking for so I’m annoyed. (Yes, I’m very easily annoyed.) I found them online on targets website but after tax and shipping it’s just not worth it. I’ll wait til I find them in store.

I’m super happy because the picture ledges that I ordered from ikea came in! Mando actually hung them when I asked and I’m in love! 


Please excuse Nathan in his undies, he wouldn’t move. 🙄

8.4.17

I’m super excited cause I’ve gotten a lot done for the party in the last day and a half.


 

Top right: the bigger Mickey head with the red “1” will be the center with the smaller red, yellow and black heads around it.

Bottom right: I’ve been taking pictures of Jake every month and these will be hung with the numbers.

Top left: happy birthday banner

Bottom left: this “one” banner will either go on his high chair when he eats his cake, or at the actual cake table, I haven’t made up my mind yet. 🤷🏼‍♀️ 

I still have a lot to make but I feel good about what I’ve gotten done so far. It doesn’t seem like a ton, but that was a buttload of cutting and my fingers felt like they were gonna fall off. 

Yesterday was also a really good day because the boys finally got to meet their grandma.(Mando’s mom.)  The boys didn’t seem shy at all when they met her, so I’m happy that that side of the family is starting to feel a little more complete. 

I really want to go to Michael’s and buy everything else I need for the party, but I’m gonna practice some self control lol hopefully I can go sometime this weekend though so I can start making the center pieces and goodie bags. Look out for a post on Sunday or Monday! 

“What’s done is done. What’s gone is gone. One of life’s lessons is always moving on. It’s ok to look back to see how far you’ve come, but keep moving forward.”

– Roy Bennet
Can I just say that it’s a really great feeling to come to the realization that you’re over a situation. That you’re no longer dwelling on what happened or what was lost. That you no longer have ill feelings for a person, just hope that one day they can forget you too. 

I do find myself keeping happy memories. Because there was plenty of them. I’m sad that there was a friendship lost for my son, that there’s a beautiful little life growing everyday that I don’t get to have a part in anymore. But I know she’s ok and she’s going to grow to be an amazing person. 

As many happy memories that I have, for a while they were hard to see. The end was full of so much ugliness. So much time was spent bad mouthing and trying to paint me in a bad light. Trying to really push the picture of me “walking away.” For a while I saw it as me being pushed away, but now I can see the truth for what it is and that I ran. There was so much negativity. Competition. Tit for tat. Drama. So many things I don’t need in my life, and when it was presented time after time, I ran.  And although I did for a while, now don’t regret it.

It hurt for a while. A long while. I felt heart broken. Like a piece of me was gone. I tried to repair what I had done, to regain what was lost. But when a person shows a different side, a completely different side, someone you didn’t know. It was what I needed.

I haven’t made any new friends. But I’ve been lucky enough to come back to friendships I once knew and I’ve had them grow into more than they’ve ever been. Beautiful women who are so supportive, so caring, who truly and honestly amazing people. There’s no competition. There’s no drama. It’s a great feeling. 

8.1.17

The first day of August brought a nice little storm for us. Just some light rain and a little thunder and lightning, but it was so nice. If only it wasn’t 90 degrees outside. 

I’m a little nervous right now because a boy that goes to the gym kids club came down with chicken pox. They let all the parents know on Saturday, and he was in kids club on Monday. But I don’t know if he was in there in the morning when I have the boys in there, so I don’t know if they actually ever came in contact with him. But I’ve been so paranoid. Jake is being a little funky this afternoon, and I’m so afraid that he’s going to come down with a fever and then break out with the chicken pox. (Nathan is fully vaccinated, but Jacob is too young to have received any vaccinations for it yet. Also, yes I vaccinate my children. No, I don’t want to hear your opinion on the matter.) He’s also cutting 2 bottom teeth so I’m hoping this is the reason for the grumpiness. I’ve got him down for a nap now so I’m hoping he wakes up in a better mood. And no fever. 🙏🏻

Besides the gym we didn’t do much today. Nathan was supposed to go to karate but I didn’t know how bad the rain would be and I didn’t want to drive with the boys in the rain. So, here we are, lounging in our undies. Hopefully tomorrow will be more productive. 

7.31.17

Hey! I’m actually updating in a timely manner! Go me! 😂

This weekend was pretty relaxing, nothing too crazy. We ended up going swimming Saturday and Mando got to join us. I didn’t get to spend too much time at the pool cause the water was a little chilly and Jake was not having it. We watched the fights with family and ate way too much yummy food. Sunday we were just lazy, I don’t think we changed out of pajamas until we went to my parents house around 5. (Nathan was mad that I made him change into normal clothes, he said he wanted to go in his underwear and pajama shirt 😝) 

I’m really annoyed with myself because I finally started cutting some of the Mickey heads out, but I ended up leaving allllll of my stuff at my parents house. I was actually feeling super motivated and wanted to get more done today but…there goes that! The boys are both napping, I’m kinda hoping to go to hobby lobby once they wake up so I can price some things for the party. And maybe buy a few things. 😬 Jake will be 10 months old on the 6th so I gotta get my shit together and really get on this! 

Look out for an update on Hobby Lobby, I’m gonna try not to go all out. Prayers are welcome 😜

7.28.17

This week has been fun.

Besides Nathan having an attitude 🙄😒 but what’s new these days. 

Nathan got his first full stripe at karate and great news at the dentist; no cavities! 🙏🏻


I didn’t do any laundry whatsoever but the house is clean so.

Tomorrow I’m hoping to take the boys swimming, maybe go to the park first thing in the morning and get in a good walk, and then we’ll be spending some time at my families house to watch the UFC fights. 

As for Sunday, it should be a super fun day too but more on that later.

I wish I had pictures of alllll the progress I’ve made on birthday decorations but I haven’t worked on them at all 😭 maybe I’ll get some cut out tomorrow, but I’m not counting on it…I really wanna get a good tan at the pool lol #priorities amiright 🙋🏼

Anyway, hopefully I’ll update Sunday or Monday with what I was and wasn’t able to do this weekend. ✌🏼

7.22.17

I got to go to Michael’s today! 🙋🏼

Mando didn’t work until tonight, so I was really hoping he’d be able to go with us so I could have a little help with the boys while I tried to get prices for all of the supplies I need to start making decorations for Jake’s party,  but he needed more sleep. (He worked a day shift yesterday then they scheduled him for a night today 🙄) But the trip went surprisingly well, I was able to get prices for everything I need and there were no major meltdowns. It went so well I contemplated going across the street to hobby lobby to check prices too. (Yes, there’s a Michael’s AND a hobby lobby across the street from each other right down the street from me. Yes, this is a problem.) I didn’t plan to buy anything but I needed a few more sheets of black paper for a banner (the paper I bought didn’t match the paper I already had, they’re totally different shades of black, I’m super annoyed 🙄😒) and they had a few decorations that I needed on clearance, so, I just couldn’t pass that up. 🤷🏼‍♀️

I’m hoping to cut a few of the things I have traced tomorrow, so hopefully I’ll get to post that. Here’s the board I have on Pinterest for Jacob’s party, this is where I got all of my ideas. 

http://pin.it/8ul1fvs

7.19.17

I gotta get better at posting. This twice a month stuff just isn’t cutting it.

It’s been a fun month so far. I guess I can catch up by posting all the pictures I’ve taken 😝 

We had a super fun 4th with family.


Jake turned 9 months old.


Free slurpees. 


Karate classes.


Park trips.


That, + the usual cooking, cleaning, and organizing. Ive been Pinteresting A LOT. So that’s led to this:

The sign on the ledge (above) is super special to me because we had it in front of our sweetheart table at our wedding. I love that we can work it into our home where we can see it every day. (I’m sappy like that, who cares.) 


The middle and the bottom are going above the couch in the living room, I just have to go back to IKEA and get another picture ledge…or 2. And a few other things 😬

And of course lots of Pinteresting for a certain first birthday coming up. 

I’ll be sure to start posting more regularly so I can post what I’m making for Jake’s party. So far I only have a few garlands and banners outlined but I’m kinda in love already. 

Look out for more posts! 

7.2.17

Yay! July is here!

I think the only thing I look forward to in July is the 4th but still…yay! 

We don’t do anything huge, just BBQ with family and watch fire works. But we always have a great time, and food 😍 I’m still not sure if we’re going to watch fire works this year cause we have Jake,  plus Nathan hates them. We’ll see.

Yesterday we had our nieces 2nd birthday at our pool. It was such a cute little kitty themed party. 



It’s been a week now since I’ve stopped pumping. Thank the Lord, it wasn’t a struggle. I was tempted to pump a few times because my boobies got uncomfortably engorged, minor leaking, but I made it, I think I’m past the toughest part. So excited to have a little bit of freedom back and now I can start to feel more like myself. Not just a cow.

Things to expect post push.

So I’ve felt the need to share this for a while now, but as the months went by I kinda let it go. Now that my milk is starting to dry up, hormone changes are popping up again, so here it is, the lovely list of things to expect post push. 

DISCLAIMER:

*this is just a list of things that I have personally experienced due to hormone changes. Some things happen to some and some don’t, and others experience a whole list of other things. But I felt the need to write this because a lot of the times, talking to friends who don’t have any children yet, they’re completely shocked by the things that can go on with your body when hormones get all crazy after childbirth.*

1. Hair loss

Everyone has heard about the beautiful head of flowing hair you get during pregnancy. But what is not as widely known, is that once baby is out, your hair may follow. As far as I know, there’s not much you can do to help or stop this, any thing I was recommended to take I couldn’t because I was breastfeeding.

2. Change in body odor.

You’re pretty familiar with your own scent, am I right? Armpits, lady parts, feet, the smell of your scalp? You may start to notice whenever you work up a sweat that your deodorant doesn’t seem to be working as well, and that the scent you once knew and had under control is different. Try switching deodorant scents, brands, or kick it up to clinical strength. Another trick I learned is that if you know you’re going to be working up a sweat, (gym, run, moving, or maybe it’s just a hot day) put on your favorite scented lotion before breaking a sweat. That way when you sweat, you’ll smell like pretty lotion and not stanky stink. 👍🏻

3. Sweating.

I don’t mean a little perspiration on a warm day. I mean full on sweats. While you sleep. I can’t tell you how many times I woke up drenched. Face dripping, hair wet, pajamas soaked and my pillow and blanket as well. I asked my doctor about this one cause it honestly scared me a bit, she said it’s your body working out all that extra water you drank during pregnancy. Fun. The only tip I have here is to keep a towel and pair of jammies close by for a 2am pat down and wardrobe change. 

4. Your period will change. 

When it comes back, it might not be the cycle you once knew. With Nathan I didn’t get my period until I was 7 months PP but with Jake it came back after 2 months. My period after Nathan pretty much went back to normal, it took a while for my period to get back on a schedule though. For a while it could be a week earlier or a week later then it was the month before. After Jacob it took no time at all for my period to become regular again, only off by a day or so. This time around my period itself is completely different. Before, it would start out light, pick up for a day or 2, and end pretty light, lasting a full week in total. Now, it’s a full week of heavy flow from start to finish. Which really blows, ya know? 

5. Back pain.

My back pain started around 5 months both times around. Now that I’m almost 9 months post partum it’s really let up. But with Nathan I made the mistake of pushing myself too much despite the pain. This time around I knew as soon as I felt the pain, (lower back more towards the center) that I needed to be careful. Don’t push yourself more than you need to. Your muscles and tendons are still a little loose and wiggly from the baby you grew pushing everything out of the way. 

6. Changes in your belly and boobs.

This one is a no brainer; you just grew and delivered a baby. But I understand the frustration that comes along with this. Looking in the mirror post baby can be a shock, it’s not the body you once knew. Will these stretch marks fade? Will my tummy go down? What the heck are my boobs gonna look like when this is all over?! Trust me; I get it. Here’s the tips I have; for your stretch marks, try neosporin. Weird, but it worked for me. I still have a few and I doubt they’ll go away, but hey, 2 babies and a few stretch marks? I can’t complain. As for your belly, all I can really say is PATIENCE. They say it takes as long as it did for you to grow the baby, for your body to go back to normal. Or the new normal. Whatever. Be patient. This stretched out poofy belly you see will eventually make its way back down to the belly you once knew. The elasticity in your skin will return, and you’ll start to feel comfortable in a bathing suit again. I promise. As for your boobies, well, as for MY boobies; this is the place I got a pretttty good amount of stretch marks. Before Nathan, I was not blessed in the boobie section. After breastfeeding, I still wasn’t blessed with the boobies. But the stretch marks and bigger nipples stayed. (Weird, big nipples, I know. But they do serve a purpose. Through pregnancy you may notice your nipples getting bigger and this is to breastfeed. If you don’t breast feed, cool, your choice. But if you do, the larger nipples are for babies foggy eye sight when they’re newborns.) Overall, be patient with yourself. Give yourself some self love, you’re still beautiful and your body will recover. 

7. Changes in appetite.

Personally, I could eat allll day if there was no consequences. My appetite through pregnancy and breastfeeding was through the roof. With the exception of my pregnancy with Jacob in the first trimester, I wasn’t hungry, felt sick all the time, and couldn’t hold much down. Once the second trimester started it was onnnnn. And it’s stayed on. 🙈😭

8. Changes in mood. 

AKA the baby blues, post partum depression, or post partum psychosis. The baby blues and post partum depression share a lot of things in common so it can be hard to tell which is which. Post partum psychosis is a completely different ball park. If you have just had a baby and have been feeling a little down, here’s a really great article I found that explained all of the differences.

https://www.helpguide.org/articles/depression/postpartum-depression-and-the-baby-blues.htm

Note: if you have read this and you feel like you fall under the category of post partum psychosis; please know this is not your fault. Do not hesitate to reach out for help, do not feel guilty or unworthy and most of all do not be embarrassed. Help is all around you and you are worth it.