Hi. Here I am for my monthly update. I can’t believe how bad I’ve gotten at this. 😭

So I literally had to go back and read my last post because it’s been so long and I couldn’t remember what I posted. Basically a surrogacy update(I have more!) and saying that February sucked ass and it continued to suck ass throughout the end of the month.

There were 2 weeks where our family was just cooped up in the house because we were passing a cold around to each other, on top of that Mando caught a stomach bug and pretty much as soon as he recovered I got food poisoning. Good times. On top of that our family was hit with heartbreaking news. Our niece, (Mando’s sister’s daughter) was diagnosed with leukemia. It’s heartbreaking to hear this about anyone, especially a child, but it’s just so much more devastating when it’s someone you know and love. She’s a little fighter though so even though it’s gonna be a tough road we know she’ll be ok.

Surrogacy updates! My couple/parents agreed to work with me! I underwent a psychological screening(and passed, so no I’m not crazy) and on Wednesday I have a medical screening where they’ll make sure I’m healthy, have no cysts or polyps, and do blood work to make sure I’m not a druggie. I’ll also get my medication to start my cycle to prepare me for the embryo transfer. I’m so excited that this is finally moving along.

Last month I started selling my decorations. It’s been a slow start, but something is better than nothing. I currently have 2 orders I need to get started on and Nathan’s birthday party decorations.

Look out for next months update! Lol


January was a booty ass month. No particular reason…it just took forever it feels like and was just..blah.

I have a lot of surrogacy updates that I’m super excited about, I’ll start at my last update on here since the next time I got news from my agency was literally 2 days after I posted on here. So, they posted my profile for IP’s to see and my profile was put on hold really quickly because there was a couple interested in me. On top of that, a “VIP/high profile customer” was interested in me as well. I was told my medical information was shared with the first couple so their dr could review it, but it literally sat on his desk for 3 looooong weeks. I went to my first surrogacy support meeting and felt really discouraged because there were so many pregnant surrogates, girls in the middle of medication cycles and even a girl who was days away from an embryo transfer, and here I was stuck not knowing wether or not I would even be selected by these IP’s. Finally I asked if it was ok if we got in contact with the other person/couple interested in me(the high profile/VIP) and it was just days before I was told my medical records were approved. Not even 2 or 3 days later I had a Skype meeting with my case manager and 2 representatives for this person/couple and it went amazingly. I was so excited I agreed then and there to work with them. I haven’t heard back because one rep went on vacation, the other had a conference all weekend, so hopefully mid week next week we’ll see if it was agreed on their side as well. There’s another support meeting on Sunday(next weekend) and I’m hoping by then I can say I’m starting my medication cycle.

Besides that, I don’t really feel like much happened in January so I’ll post some pictures to recap.


Happy new year!

I was really hoping to dive back into the gym and getting back on track with the new year, but I just haven’t felt 100% since having the flu and I don’t wanna push it. On top of that, Nathan’s felt pretty poopy these past few days so no gym for me. It’s ok because I went to my moms house to do some washing and borrowed her weights. It’s nothing much, some ankle weights, 10 pound hand weights and a 40 pound barbell. But it’s better than nothing. We’ll see how I’m feeling tomorrow and maybe I’ll do a quick strength training session at home.

So I feel like now is a good time to let the cat outta the bag; (I already did on instagram) MY LITTLE SURPRISE. I’m going to be a surrogate! Medical records have been checked, background checks are clear, my 17 page application in complete, pictures have been submitted, all releases have been signed and my profile is READY. I’m just waiting on my kaiser insurance booklet to come in the mail so I can send it to my case manager, then she can post my profile to be reviewed by different “intended parents.” She said it’s a pretty quick process, because there’s so many intended parents and not as many surrogates, so she said it’s usually a few days to a couple weeks before you can be selected. From there, I can either meet up with them in person, if they’re local, or we can skype. At any time either of us can say no and it’s on to the next one. But if we like each other, and verbally agree then it’s on. Contracts will be signed, I’ll see their doctor to determine what types of medication I’ll be on to prepare myself for the embryo transfer(it’s basically ifv) and then the fun really begins! I’m so so excited to be starting this journey and I’m gonna document as much as I can, so check in for updates!


My home has been hit by this years flu and it’s a bitch. Mando and I came down with it first, at the same exact time…fun…and Nathan just came down with it this morning. I really hope it skips Jake. But this lovely flu includes headaches, achy/swollen joints, stomach trouble, a nasty cough, fever, extreme chills, and dizziness. At least that’s what we experienced. Luckily, the worst of it only lasted 24 hours for Mando and I. We still have a really annoying cough but I think we’re both happy we don’t feel as bad as we did.

Mine and Mando’s background checks have come back and we’re all good 😉 so one more thing checked off my little list. I’m just waiting for one more thing to come in the mail next week so I can send it out to my case manager and we’re good to go. Hopefully with within the next week I can announce what it is! ✌🏼

Putting my thoughts out into the universe in hopes they get to you.

Tonight I find myself staring up at the sky and wondering where you are. I hope your transition to the other side was quick, and I hope you were guided and greeted by our loved ones. The fact that you are no longer in pain or suffering comforts me. You were a true warrior, nana. I’ll give the boys extra kisses, tell them stories of my childhood with you, and of course, pass our name on to my little girl when the day comes.

I’ll love you forever nana.

Rest peacefully. ♥️


I can’t believe it’s Christmas Eve already.

We’re just gonna relax today before the madness. Usually we do Christmas Eve with my grandpa and my dad’s siblings but they moved it to the 23rd(yesterday.) We wanted to get together with Mando’s family today but they went to his grandmas house, (I couldn’t talk him into going) they wanted to get together yesterday but we our other family get together. So we’ll probably exchange gifts with them sometime next week. Tomorrow we’re going to my parents house and having a big family dinner.

Today, I just want to clean. I know we’ll be gone alllll day tomorrow and I really don’t want to come home after a day of madness to a messy house. So I’m really trying to knock everything out today. Besides that, I’m gonna make some veggie posole, make a ginger bread lookout (Paw patrol!) with Nathan, and maybe a few other arts and crafts with him. So far he’s made Christmas trees and candy canes, (I’ll update with pictures later). We’re also gonna take the boys to look at Christmas lights tonight…if we’re feeling up to it. 🤷🏼‍♀️ We’ll seewhat happens!


December seems to always have surprises in store for my family and they’re usually surprises no one wants. My grandma who has pretty severe COPD (I think she started smoking in her early teens) came down with pneumonia, and had a few other things going on. She had been hospitalized a few times before and a couple of those times we had been told she wouldn’t pull through and she did. Well, same goes for this time, the drs told our family the same thing, and wouldn’t you know, this woman is pulling out again. Talk about a fighter.

As far as Christmas shopping goes, we went out last Monday to start our shopping, we got a few things for some people, and I got a cute frame and Mando got a pair of headphones. So…that’s how that’s going. 🤷🏼‍♀️

As far as my new little journey; about a week and a half went by and I hadn’t heard anything. It was super discouraging. So I reached out to get any update I could. Two out of my 3 medical records had been released and arrived to the office it needs to be at (3/3 on Monday, I received and mailed out the last one Friday.) and once she gets the third she’ll start mine and Mando’s background checks. I have a few things to finish up with my profile, hopefully by the end of the month everything will be finished and my profile will be ready to post. And then I can really come out and say what it is! I’m super excited for what the new year will bring.


FUN FACT: It doesn’t matter if you blocked me on Instagram (again? 😂) This isn’t instagram. Your username still shows up. 😂😂😂 nice try tho.

Anyway. Nathan did his first karate tournament today. It was a small in-house tournament, just for students at the dojo where he trains. I felt like it was the perfect chance to introduce him to tournaments, and yay! He got a participation medal. Say what you want, he was hyped, and we were proud. So go shit on someone else’s parade.

I attempted to make a little Christmas treat I saw on Pinterest and failed. Twice. Idk how, and yes I’m still bitter cause I was really looking forward to them. 😭

I didn’t make it to the gym today, fingers crossed for tomorrow because I had waaaayyy too many chips, treats and tamales today.

Other than that, things haven’t been too crazy or exciting around here lately. I’m hoping to start Christmas shopping next week. Maybe make some different treats that don’t burn. 🙄

I can’t really give any updates on my little surprise in the works, mainly because i just don’t have any. Medical records apparently take a ridiculously long time to be released. Hopefully within the next few days I hear something cause its a little discouraging not hearing anything for a full week.

Check in tomorrow or Monday for updates! I know you will.😉😘


Lately I’ve found myself holding back a lot on here. Like I said, I’d come on, start a post, and never finish it. The main reason being that I feel like it has too much personal information in it.

I’ve discovered that I can track where the views on my page come from, a large amount coming from my instagram, which I appreciate; family and friends. What I don’t appreciate, is almost daily views from people who are no longer a part of my life. Why you feel the need to check up on me and keep track of what’s going on in my life is beyond me. But I’m not going to let it hold me back anymore. Just let me say, I do see you.

I still don’t want to go into full detail or fully say what I’m starting here, because it’s still in the very beginning stages of it. Paper work, medical history and record checks, background checks, building a profile, once it’s all confirmed and set in stone, contracts signed and ready to go, I’ll go into full detail and say exactly what it is. It may be obvious for some just from that description, and if you’ve figured it out then great 😉 but maybe in another few weeks or month or so I’ll be able to lay it all out. But for the time being, I’m just so excited to finally be starting this journey.

I’m currently at the gym, I’m getting back on track this week after a week and a half off. I’m doing 4 weeks of HIIT exercises and cardio to cut back down to where I want to be. Lord knows I have not been eating right, that paired with zero working out has got me feeling pretty fluffy. Here’s what I’m doing:

This is what I’m using for the crossfit workouts

This is what I’m doing for cardio days plus 6 minutes of alternating side jogs(wtf I don’t know what these are called or what to call them besides this) and then 10 minutes of walking on incline. After that I do some ab workouts.

Wether I make it the 4 weeks is still unknown 😜

Look out for updates!


So. I suck.

I’ve come on and to start posts and gotten too lazy lol

My free time lately has consisted of A LOT of crafting. I’m getting a lot of new stuff made, got a lot of stuff to sell and I’m really excited.

The boys are growing so much, probably too much 😫 Jake is being so stubborn and still not completely walking. He takes a few steps here and there and stands on his own a lot, but…he’s just choosing not to walk. He CAN walk. I know he can. He just…doesn’t. 🙄 Nathan is STILL not in preschool and I’m starting to get very impatient with our district. I’m actually going to try registering him with other districts around us in hopes of him getting in faster.

Tomorrow I have a meeting to start a new journey, I’m so nervous and excited but I don’t want to get too far into it too ahead of time.

Here’s some pictures from the month I’ve been lagging on updating: