I went to Michael’s.

I pinned two things that I’ve been dying to do.

Here’s the first: 

Every day leading up to Valentine’s Day we put a new heart on Nathan’s door with a reason why we love him. I almost bought his Valentine’s goodie basket while I was there but I think he was on to me so I had to abandon that mission. He did pick out a Valentine’s Day craft.

I think I pinned this next one while I was still pregnant with Jake, so I think it’s safe to say that I’m so freakin excited to actually be starting on it. I can’t wait to get the boys’ little feet prints on it tomorrow. 


Today was a really productive day. 

I got my sink full of dishes washed and the kitchen clean before 10am. Took the boys to the park, got in a good hour there and then went grocery shopping. We all took really good naps(yes, naps are an important part of productive days. You can’t pour from an empty cup. 😉) I got 2 loads of Mando’s laundry done, picked up the house, cleaned my room, went through Jake’s clothes(I have a serious hoarding issue with the boys clothes, but more on that later.) and got Mando’s breakfast and lunch ready for work tomorrow. I swear; when I’m productive I get shit done. But when I’m lazy…oh man. I have to give some credit to the boys because they were both actually in pretty good moods today which allowed me to get so much done. Way to go little guys. 😘 

So. About my hoarding issue. In most situations I’m more of a “if we don’t need it, toss it.” Type of person. We’ll give things away to family members or friends, sell it if we can, or take it to good will. But when it comes to the boys clothes, I have a really hard time parting ways. I kept a BUNCH of Nathan’s old clothes, and I know what you’re thinking…hand-me-downs! Yes, in some cases. Before Jake was born I went through what baby clothes I kept from Nathan and I’d say 75% I couldn’t bring myself to hang up and use for Jake. I wanted to keep it for Nathan somehow. Like, I wanted it to be exclusively his. I have no idea what this was all about. But I just could not bring myself to put them in the closet for Jake. I try to go through Nathan’s clothes every month to weed out what is just destroyed (throw away), what is still in good shape but too small(hand-me-downs), and what I really just want to keep. And I didn’t notice until tonight, when I went to put some of Jake’s stuff away, but I’m running out of room. Im gonna need a new box in about another month. I look at the box, and I feel a tad ashamed. It’s a pretty big box and it’s filled almost to the top with clothes, a few of Nathan’s favorite baby toys and a few pairs of shoes from Nathan’s first year. I’d say a good 80% of the box is from Nathan’s first 3 years, there’s a small corner of Jake’s clothes. But just…like…can I really keep this up?! I mean I kinda have to. I can’t bring myself to part with ANY of it. But I don’t really have room for multiples of these boxes just to hoard the boys clothes! I mean…

It’s a lot of stuff guys. Our apartment is not that big and when we get a house I don’t want to take up that much space in the garage with this. Who am I kidding? I have to. I’m in it this deep, there’s no turning back now. Just tell me I’m not the only one…please?

This weekend was pretty busy but fun. Mando and I had our first time away from the boys since we had Jake. We played footgolf. Basically golf with soccer balls. I sucked. Then Sunday we went to one of Mando’s 7 aunts birthday party. Im not exaggerating, he literally has 7 aunts, and after 10 years I’m finally starting to get the names down. So like I said, the weekend was crazy, the house was a mess last night but I got it all sorted out today. 

I guess you’re all caught up. 

Oh, the boys are all better, no more sickies and I’m hoping to keep it that way.

I like pregnant me.

Well…I like looking back at pregnant me. I love how I look pregnant. And I love to look back at pictures when it was a quieter time lol

This has to be one of my favorite. This was October 1st, and it was the night I started having contractions. I honestly thought I’d have Jake the next day and I was panicking. Turns out I’d be in labor a few days longer. But I told myself I needed to take a picture of myself right then cause this was it, this was my belly. Round and heavy, but I loved it. 


Every time I make a blog post with the date in the subject I almost always put a different year. And it’s not 2016. Right now I almost put 2012. Wtf.

Anyway, I went to Michael’s this morning but I couldn’t buy anything 😭 I couldn’t find my gift card anywhere and I’m so mad! They had the cutest frames that were 70% off and 2 really cute wall decor pieces for 40% off. It hurt my heart to leave empty handed. I’ll be back my pretties. You will be on my walls!

I cleaned my dining room! We can finally eat family dinners there, in fact we did last night. It was slightly torturous. Nathan sings songs more than he eats and messes around so freakin much. I know he’s 3, but cheese and rice. I have no idea how many times I had to remind him to eat. And to stop picking his nose. Boy mom problems. 😵


So Nathan’s getting better. He’s still coughing, but it’s not the dry barking cough it was. It’s breaking up and he’s finally getting a better nights sleep. 

But, on the other hand, Jake’s got a stuffy nose and was up every hour last night. I just wanna sleep guys.

I have the chance to take a nap right now, but I have a gift card to Michaels and it’s burnin a hole in my pocket. 

I also really wanna finish cleaning off my dining room table. We’ve basically been using it for storage 🙈 but in a week or so we’ll be able to start giving Jake rice cereal and I want to start eating dinner at the table. 

Budgeting sucks. I wanna buy a cabinet for the living room, some sort of storage thingy for the dining room, I NEED to get Nathan his big boy bed. I mean I suppose out of all of the things I want Nathan’s bed is the only thing we actually need. I keep telling myself we have time, we didn’t put Nathan in the crib til he was 4 months so we’ll do the same with Jake. But then I actually stop and think and it hits me that 4 months is just a week or so away. Mind blown. Time is really flying this time around.

I really just can’t wait to get our house. I gotta check myself so often and remind myself what the budgeting is really for. This apartment is so nice and cozy and we’ve made so many memories, but dammit we’re running out of space. And I can’t wait to decorate. And have a playroom. And space. And just have something that is OURS. Ugh. Patience. Just a few more months. 🙏🏻🏡


Hello. It’s 4am again. 

I’m on night #3 of shitty sleep.

Nathan wakes up coughing and crying; I get up and get him back to sleep. Then pretty much RIGHT after that Jake wakes up to eat. Change him, feed him, back to sleep he goes. And then, because for whatever reason, my milk is running stupid low. So I’m having to pump every hour just to get enough milk for Jake’s next bottle. 😵 

I’m runnin on empty here. Hoping this ends soon but knowing Nathan, he’s gonna continue to use “I have a cough” to keep trying to sleep in my bed or to get me to sleep on the couch with him. 


I surprisingly don’t feel as poopy as I thought I would today.

Jake woke up at 6:30 as usual, so I really only got 45 minutes bewtween getting Nathan back to sleep and Jake waking up. I think it’s because I got a pretty solid nap yesterday. So thank goodness for that.

I managed to get Nathan a doctors appointment for today. Usually when I try to get a same day appointment they’re so overbooked there’s no getting in for a few days.

I’m so so happy because I got to start on Nathan’s birthday decorations last night. I had stencils made for banners already but my mom accidentally tossed them when she was reorganizing her craft room.

Yea I said it. A craft ROOM. My mom turned my old bedroom into a craft room and I am not mad about it. Between her and I always making something, it has everything you’d ever need. And if we don’t have it we don’t hesitate to buy it…because one of us usually has a gift card or coupon. 😂

I’m hoping to get to hobby lobby today to buy more paper. I wayyyy underestimated how much I would need. I’m also hoping to take all of my recyclables in today cause we’re really backed up and it’s starting to take up room on my kitchen counters.

So there’s my fun day. If I’m lucky I’ll get to the gym but there’s really no telling.


Sick baby.

Hello. I’ve been up since 4. I’ve only slept in my own bed for 2 hours tonight. The first 3 or so were spent sleeping on a giant bear on Nathan’s floor. 

Self diagnosed; but I’m pretty sure he has croup. He’s never had it before. But that cough, there’s no mistaking it. 

We bundled up and sat on our balcony for a while to let the cold night moisten him up a little. It seemed to work pretty quickly and now we’re inside with his cool air humidifier going. 🙏🏻 let us pray for some solid sleep. But with a baby due to be up in about 45 minutes I’m not too hopeful. 

I know I’m not done having kids.

2 is tough. Tougher than I could’ve ever imagined. These boys drive me crazy more often than not. But it’s one of those “you’re really annoying right now but you’re also very cute” crazies. If that makes sense. Moms will get this.

And I know this sounds crazy, but I really love giving birth. I’m insane, I know. Who enjoys the pain? The intensity? Not me. But it’s all a part of that end result. 

This moment right here. I love it. The pain and everything is all temporary. I look at these pictures and I feel it all over again. With Jake it was only 3 1/2 months ago, the emotions and the memories of the labor and contractions are all still so fresh and vivid in my mind. But I would do it all over again. 
I only want 3 kids but I don’t think 3 pregnancies will be it for me. I really want to be able to carry a baby for a childhood friend of mine. I feel like with pregnancy and labor and delivery being fairly easy for me, it’s something that I have to do. I feel like maybe that’s one of my reasons for being here. 


I got through 5 loads of laundry today. Well actually, WE got through 5 loads of laundry today. I did 3 before I went to get my hair done and Mando did the last 2. Bless him. I was running low on undies. 

Like I said I got my hair doneeee. I’m getting more and more comfortable going shorter and shorter. I feel like I chop it and then let it get long for a while but I did 2 chops pretty close together. I was hoping to get my eyebrows threaded today because they are pretty beastly right now. Hopefully tomorrow. 🙏🏻 

So right now I have a few ideas in my head that I need to put down, like things I’m excited about and reallllly want to get started on/get done.

-I’m super super suuuuper excited to get started on Nathan’s birthday decorations.  Hobby lobby was having half off craft paper sooo I stocked up lol

-I reallllly wanna get my nose pierced again. I first got it back in like 09 and had to let it close because I couldn’t wear it at work. I’ve wanted to get it done again since I had Nathan and I think I just need to give in. Soon. ASAP

-I have 3 tattoo ideas that I really really need to do. I haven’t been able to stop thinking about them and I know exactly what I want. The first one I would get it Mando’s initials on my ring finger. And then I want to get the boys initials on my side. Nothing big. Nothing crazy. Just things that are special and important to me. I know exactly how I want them and I really can’t wait to do it. Hopefully I can suck it up and get it done lol I’m such a sissy when it comes to needles. But I’ve birthed 2 children so I think I can handle this right? Hopefully? 🙈