9.5.18

Well hello.

So much has gone on so I’m trying to figure out where to begin.

I guess I’ll start with the surrogacy. Per my last post(well over a month ago 😬) I had my embryo transfer, but unfortunately the embryo did not stick. I had a feeling. I know that sounds dumb, like oh really? You had a feeling? But I’m really intune with my body and after about a week I really just felt it. To the point where, the night before I had my appointment to determine wether or not it stuck, I had a full anxiety attack. I knew I wasn’t pregnant, but somehow going in for the blood draw to HEAR the news was tearing me up. I did it, I got the call and the nurse gave me the news. I cried. I really really felt…defeated I guess? I was really just hoping and praying it would take on the first cycle. But it didn’t and there was nothing I could do to change the outcome. I let myself feel what I was feeling. I cried it out, I avoided going anywhere I would see anyone who knew about my process, just because I knew if it came up the water works would be back on. But I had to get over it. I had to remind myself how lucky I am to not have to go through a process like this to have my own kids. I also had to remind myself that the parents were also receiving the news that the embryo didn’t take and how that must be a blow to them to. The good thing is that we’re staring another cycle this month, so I’m really hoping this takes this time.

My big boy started kindergarten last week. And I was a mess. I cried for a good hour(on and off) after I dropped him off. I tried so hard not to show my emotions in front of him but it was so hard. He was so so excited, but as soon as we got into his classroom I could tell reality set in for him and I could see he got nervous. Before I left his classroom he looked like he was gonna cry which really tore me up. I hated leaving him like that. I barely made it outside his classroom door before I started my ugly cry. Day 2 & 3 I teared up too. This week has been better. I do find myself getting choked up when I’m walking back to the car with Jake. He’s been home with me since day one. Every schedule and routine he’s ever been on has been mine. I’ve always known exactly what he’s doing, I’ve always taught him(what I can), so for him to be at school and just be doing this without me makes me a little sad. But at the same time I’m so happy to see his excitement for school. I love hearing the stories he tells when I pick him up. I love the worksheets he does. And if he could remember any of the songs he sings in class I know I’d love those too. He’s really loving it and I love that he loves it. It was just an adjustment, but it was very much needed.

Sunday we took the metrolink to Olivera St. in LA. It was a bit of a rushed trip due to me making us miss not one, but TWO trains. πŸ€·πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ But it was fun.

7.25.18

Today is national bump day, as well as the 40th birthday of the FIRST baby EVER born via surrogacy, and it was also my embryo transfer day! πŸŽ‰

So…this wasn’t supposed to happen til Sunday…but lemme fill you in.

Ok, my last post covered the start of my medication cycle. As a recap; I started off on 3 prenatal vitamins and 2 estrogen pills daily with an estrogen shot every 3 days. By the time my first monitoring appointment rolled around the drs noticed that my uterus lining was getting thick faster than they had anticipated, so to catch it at its peak, they moved the transfer date up, which also meant adding more medications.

These are currently all of the medications I’m on:

-3 vaginal suppositories daily(to be taken throughout the day, basically breakfast, lunch, and right before bed)

-3 prenatals daily(I take one after lunch and 2 after dinner)

-light steroids(the dosage varies daily, the pack starts with 6 in one day, and works its way down to one a day and then you start a new pack. They are to be take at different times throughout the day)

-2 estrogen pills daily(one with lunch and one with dinner)

-daily progesterone injection(mine kinda gives me a stomach ache so I do the shot right before bed so I just sleep through it)

-estrogen injection every 3 days(right before bed)

It seems overwhelming, but it’s honestly not terrible. I kinda run my day around the medications, I make sure to keep the times consistent for each pill so I know I’ve taken them because even one missed dose can lead to…well not so good news. And I don’t want that! I want the good news! I want this little guy to stick on the first try! So good vibes, prayers up, and happy thoughts.

7.14.18

2 updates in 1 month! I’m on a roll!

So I’ll start with a surrogacy update first because I’m so freakin excited about it: I’M UNDER CONTRACT! AND ON MEDICATION! (I had to put it in all caps because I’m literally SO excited about it.) I had an ultrasound and blood work on Wednesday, and I was given legal clearance(meaning both mine and my IPs signed and notarized contracts were received by her attorney and accepted) so once my results from that appointment were checked I was given the green light to start my meds. So far, I’m taking 2 pills orally and a prenatal everyday, and I’m having to give myself an injection every 3 days. The first injection was Wednesday and the second was today, on the upper and outer butt cheek. I was so nervous on Wednesday, I was like 98% sure I was gonna have to call my mom and ask her to do it. Today wasn’t so bad. I have my cute little Cars 3 bandaid on it right now.

The 4th of July came and went SO fast. On the 3rd we went to a concert in the park/independence day celebration. It was really cute and fun and surprisingly, all the games for the kids were free. They won cheap little prizes but for a 5 and (almost) 2 year old it was the best thing in the world. We spent the 4th with family relaxing and we actually got to watch fireworks for the first time since we’ve had Nathan. He’s always been super sensitive to loud noises but this year he was so into it. It was really cute to see him excited and not freaking out.

Now I’m gonna go overboard on pictures from the last 4 month. Bask in the glory of my cute ass family. 😘

3.9.18

Hi. Here I am for my monthly update. I can’t believe how bad I’ve gotten at this. 😭

So I literally had to go back and read my last post because it’s been so long and I couldn’t remember what I posted. Basically a surrogacy update(I have more!) and saying that February sucked ass and it continued to suck ass throughout the end of the month.

There were 2 weeks where our family was just cooped up in the house because we were passing a cold around to each other, on top of that Mando caught a stomach bug and pretty much as soon as he recovered I got food poisoning. Good times. On top of that our family was hit with heartbreaking news. Our niece, (Mando’s sister’s daughter) was diagnosed with leukemia. It’s heartbreaking to hear this about anyone, especially a child, but it’s just so much more devastating when it’s someone you know and love. She’s a little fighter though so even though it’s gonna be a tough road we know she’ll be ok.

Surrogacy updates! My couple/parents agreed to work with me! I underwent a psychological screening(and passed, so no I’m not crazy) and on Wednesday I have a medical screening where they’ll make sure I’m healthy, have no cysts or polyps, and do blood work to make sure I’m not a druggie. I’ll also get my medication to start my cycle to prepare me for the embryo transfer. I’m so excited that this is finally moving along.

Last month I started selling my decorations. It’s been a slow start, but something is better than nothing. I currently have 2 orders I need to get started on and Nathan’s birthday party decorations.

Look out for next months update! Lol

2.4.17

January was a booty ass month. No particular reason…it just took forever it feels like and was just..blah.

I have a lot of surrogacy updates that I’m super excited about, I’ll start at my last update on here since the next time I got news from my agency was literally 2 days after I posted on here. So, they posted my profile for IP’s to see and my profile was put on hold really quickly because there was a couple interested in me. On top of that, a “VIP/high profile customer” was interested in me as well. I was told my medical information was shared with the first couple so their dr could review it, but it literally sat on his desk for 3 looooong weeks. I went to my first surrogacy support meeting and felt really discouraged because there were so many pregnant surrogates, girls in the middle of medication cycles and even a girl who was days away from an embryo transfer, and here I was stuck not knowing wether or not I would even be selected by these IP’s. Finally I asked if it was ok if we got in contact with the other person/couple interested in me(the high profile/VIP) and it was just days before I was told my medical records were approved. Not even 2 or 3 days later I had a Skype meeting with my case manager and 2 representatives for this person/couple and it went amazingly. I was so excited I agreed then and there to work with them. I haven’t heard back because one rep went on vacation, the other had a conference all weekend, so hopefully mid week next week we’ll see if it was agreed on their side as well. There’s another support meeting on Sunday(next weekend) and I’m hoping by then I can say I’m starting my medication cycle.

Besides that, I don’t really feel like much happened in January so I’ll post some pictures to recap.

12.24.17

I can’t believe it’s Christmas Eve already.

We’re just gonna relax today before the madness. Usually we do Christmas Eve with my grandpa and my dad’s siblings but they moved it to the 23rd(yesterday.) We wanted to get together with Mando’s family today but they went to his grandmas house, (I couldn’t talk him into going) they wanted to get together yesterday but we our other family get together. So we’ll probably exchange gifts with them sometime next week. Tomorrow we’re going to my parents house and having a big family dinner.

Today, I just want to clean. I know we’ll be gone alllll day tomorrow and I really don’t want to come home after a day of madness to a messy house. So I’m really trying to knock everything out today. Besides that, I’m gonna make some veggie posole, make a ginger bread lookout (Paw patrol!) with Nathan, and maybe a few other arts and crafts with him. So far he’s made Christmas trees and candy canes, (I’ll update with pictures later). We’re also gonna take the boys to look at Christmas lights tonight…if we’re feeling up to it. πŸ€·πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ We’ll seewhat happens!

11.27.17

So. I suck.

I’ve come on and to start posts and gotten too lazy lol

My free time lately has consisted of A LOT of crafting. I’m getting a lot of new stuff made, got a lot of stuff to sell and I’m really excited.

The boys are growing so much, probably too much 😫 Jake is being so stubborn and still not completely walking. He takes a few steps here and there and stands on his own a lot, but…he’s just choosing not to walk. He CAN walk. I know he can. He just…doesn’t. πŸ™„ Nathan is STILL not in preschool and I’m starting to get very impatient with our district. I’m actually going to try registering him with other districts around us in hopes of him getting in faster.

Tomorrow I have a meeting to start a new journey, I’m so nervous and excited but I don’t want to get too far into it too ahead of time.

Here’s some pictures from the month I’ve been lagging on updating:

10.24.17

Hi. Hello. I’m back lol

We’ve had a fun couple weekends since the birthday madness has been over. The weekend after the party was over my aunt and uncle went camping at Crystal Cove in Laguna Beach, and they invited us out to the beach for the day. As soon as we found out Mando didn’t work that Saturday we said we were in. We didn’t go to the beach all summer cause of his schedule so I’m glad we got this trip in, it’s such a pretty beach. 


This past weekend we took the boys to the pumpkin patch. Jake couldn’t do much because he’s STILL being stubborn and not walking πŸ™„ plus all the jumpers and rides were for the bigger kids. But he still enjoys being out and about so it was fun for everyone. 


I’m a little frustrated right now because Nathan is on a waiting list for preschool through our city’s school district and it’s just taking forever. I’m starting to get nervous that he’s not gonna get any time to get used to being in a classroom setting before he has to start kindergarten. And I’m also starting to get really scared that he’s going to fall behind educationally. Before having Jake I was able to work with him on things a little more but now, not so much. And I feel super guilty about it. I’m really going to start trying to set aside more time to do it and look into what preschool curriculums include, get some worksheets printed and really start on this with him. These past few weeks we’ve done a few Halloween arts and crafts that he did really really well with. I cut out all the pieces for him while he’s napping, that way when he wakes up we have something fun to work on.


10.9.17

The party madness is over.

Our big boy is 1, and we threw him the cutest little party. I’m so so happy with the way everything turned out. The decorations I made, my sister in law got so many cute things for the party, the piΓ±ata, the cutest, tastiest caramel apples, my aunt made the cutest cake and cupcakes, and just all the help we had from family setting it all up. I got more pictures than usual, so here they come. πŸ˜‰


I didn’t get any pictures of the banners hung, the center pieces on the table, or the food table but I’m just so happy that I even got any. Now that the party and Jake’s birthday is all said and done hopefully I’ll be posting more. ✌🏼

9.17.17

I’ve come on a few times and started up a post and didn’t get to finishing it, so let’s see what I get done tonight lol Clearly, I’ve been lagging, so let’s see what I can catch up on.

The first thing that comes to mind is Jakes birthday party. I’m not nearly as far along with decorations as I’d like to be, but I’m almost done. Everything was on hold for the past week and a half when the boys got sick, and I do mean EVERYTHING. I missed out on my “me” time at the gym for 10 days straight, not much house work got done, no laundry, no decorations, nothing. Nathan had an upper respiratory infection and Jake had a pretty serious case of croup, serious enough for a dose of steroids and a breathing treatment in the ER. It was scary, but we got through it and they’re both doing so much better. 

Mando’s work schedule has been crazy, but work is work and we definitely need it. 

Friday was our 11 year anniversary. We didn’t get to have a date night like we had wanted to due to the boys still recovering and his work schedule but he did have the weekend off so it was nice to have him home. 

We had another little scare this past week, and as much as Mando would say differently, I know for a fact we were both freaking out. I was 2 days late on my period, and I’ve always been super regular, so when I realized I hadn’t started I went into panic mode. I actually took a pregnancy test, I don’t know what went wrong, I don’t know if I peed on it too much, or not enough, but I got a “test error” message so, no answers there. My period eventually came, with a fury. And I do have to say as much as I was freakin terrified, I was also a little sad. I know we need to wait, Jake’s still a baby, diapers and formula for 2 would cost way too much , and I feel like Jake just needs his time to be a baby and not be rushed to be big brother. But I REALLY like being pregnant. Summer 2018 is sounding like a good time to start trying for number 3. 

That’s all I can really think of to update on, I’ll probably remember more later on so I’ll save that for another post, but here’s some pictures from the last month to catch up on.